Why is it?

I should be happy, right? I should be contented on what I got, right? I passed. I did my best. I did it on my own. I didn't depend on others. But WHY IS IT that I am feeling unhappy and uncontented??

I should never feel this way, because this feelings is for selfish ones. I shouldn't be upset on what I am to other people, but rather, I should be glad that I've overcome my own expectations. I know what I can do. I know what I'm capable of. And the result only shows that I am more than what I picture myself to be. But WHY IS IT I'm feeling this way?

Is it because they say "You are who you are with" and I am not like them. I can't be like them, and I don't think I will ever be like them.

As much as I wanted to be happy for them, to celebrate like them, I just can't. Just like what I heard the other time - "Feeling ko ang bobo bobo ko." :(

I know for myself that I should be happy. I PASSED!! It's beyond what I imagined. But seeing them thinking and experiencing the other way around, it made me feel like it was just me. IT IS ME. IT'S IN ME.

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Just letting it out

I really can't understand myself. I know i'm a professional in these things, these feelings and these experiences. But why am I feeling so depressed all over again.

From elementary up to now, same feelings, same situations, different people but still the same me. Why can't i learn from the past? It is something that i really need to work on, but i just can't.

I know, if someone out there will be reading this crap, they might think i'm weird or crazy. I actually can't state what those things were, those feelings, and those experiences. I just can't bring myself to say it even in writing.

Well, i just wanted to let it out so it won't stuck in me forever. It somehow lessen my problems, worries, and stress. At least for now I can say that even in this piece of a site, there I found someone who can listen to problems, just like a confidante.

Whenever you feel bad about something, don't let it ruin your everyday life. Let it out! Just let it out and it will feel nice.

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